Delicately

Holding Hope

This song was created using my lyrics with Suno

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verse 1

i was just saying
this the other day
telling him bout
how sometimes the hardest thing
is when you finally feel okay

when things seem too good
for them to be true
and then the panic starts up because
now you’ve got something to lose

here i am again sitting in
more awareness
giving advice i can’t take
like i’m an expert on this

cause i can only half enjoy
the good things that i find
the other half of me knows
good is never mine

pre-chorus

i’m so used to living in the break
happiness feels fleeting
like i already know it’s fate

chorus

i’m excited, but i am terrified
i am smiling, but screaming inside
i am telling the truth, but hiding in it
why do i make things so complicated?

sometimes i ask different versions of myself
questions that don’t seem to help
lately, it’s if i am allowed to be
someone who holds hope delicately

post chorus

i don’t know what to do with easy
cause calm feels like the enemy
when it can’t be given with certainty
so i’ll hold this hope so delicately

verse 2

and i sit outside counting the lights
in the treeline

convincing myself that maybe everything

really is fine

and i succeed for a little while before the history
appears

and i crawl into bed and make love to all of my fears

am i just a whore for my own relentless thoughts?

i don’t know if that’s loving myself, or just self sabotage

pre-chorus

it’s like i can only alternate between
what you say and what i’ve seen

chorus

i’m excited, but i am terrified
i am smiling, but screaming inside
i am telling the truth, but hiding in it
why do i make things so complicated?

sometimes i ask different versions of myself
questions that don’t seem to help
lately, it’s if i am allowed to be
someone who holds hope delicately

post chorus

i don’t know what to do with easy
cause calm feels like the enemy
when it can’t be given with certainty
so i’ll hold this hope so delicately

bridge

and the more i believe
in the words that are said
the more i wonder
how i got so stupid

i should know better
than this by now
so why is my guard
still coming down

pre chorus

there’s something saying
i don’t need to do this thing i do
where i can’t let good things
just be true

chorus

i’m excited, but i am terrified
i am smiling, but screaming inside
i am telling the truth, but hiding in it
why do i make things so complicated?

sometimes i ask different versions of myself
questions that don’t seem to help
lately, it’s if i am allowed to be
someone who holds hope delicately

post chorus

i don’t know what to do with easy
calm is not my enemy
can i ask you to be
some one who holds my hope so delicately?

-Canary Vale